Priceless !

At this point Drake is 4 months old. Who puts their baby in school at this age? Wasn't I a stay at home mom? Didn't I give up a career as one of "Greensboro's Finest" to be with my children? All these thoughts ran through my head as we entered the school in January.

I made a plan for us, the four of us(T,S,G & D) would take Drake to school. I thought if I had Daddy and Grant to take my mind off dropping Drake at GSO CP, that it would be exciting. WRONG!!! I know you'll never guess this, but I cried, no actually I sobbed as we were leaving. I wasn't suppose to do this till kindergarten, the whole thing actually caught me off guard. I knew this was the place for Drake and our family, but dropping your baby to others, was a step I wasn't prepared for. I now know what it's like for parents leaving their children in daycare while they go back to work for the first time. And yes, I did leave crying that day, but once again, time healed that wound and quickly.

We started Drake at 3 days a week, that was my agreement and there weren't rules saying different at the time. I think by the end of the month I started 4 days and actually enjoyed dropping him off! I saw how he reacted to his environment for the first time, that he knew he was somewhere besides floating in space!!! I could tell he knew when we got there, don't ask how, I just knew.

I tried for several months to come up with ways of letting him know where we were going in the mornings. I forgot to mention, he cried for the 45 minute commute EVERY morning and EVERY afternoon. As I told this to Lori one day, she immediately jumped into action! She first came up with the idea of a vibration pillow, it worked 75% of the time. Then she came up with a way of taking a weighted pillow and laying it across his lap to hold his hands down. He had this severe hands flying, I'm falling type spells. This feeling would scare him and he would start crying all over again. As a reminder, at this point he still cried 85% of the day and had very little calming once he got started. And once again, God did prevail, these techniques helped at night time too. He actually started sleeping for a few hours at a time, in stead of minutes. What a miracle!!!

After several weeks went by, I found comfort in leaving Drake at the Greensboro Cerebral Palsy Infant Toddler Program. I started getting my "grove" back, as some call it. No I haven't lost the pounds I added during all this, no my house is still a mess and the laundry's still behind and yes, I still cry from time to time. I Do though have a good outlook about Drake, about my family, about how the world isn't so cruel after all. How does that commercial go, PRICELESS!!!